Refusal

I've decided that I'm going to refuse to help anyone at work when they are on the cell phone. I mean, I kind of do it already but I'm going to officially put my foot down and make it known that I'm irritated with them..haha. I'm going to roll my eyes and throw my hands in the air with the disgust. I'll do it in a suttle enough way that the majority of the customers will not even notice. One of the rudest things a consumer can do is come up to the register or ask me for help and then tell me to hold on so they can finish their conversation. The other day I walked away from a guy in rollerblades because he did that to me. I'm not saying that was the most mature and professional thing but that day I just wasn't having it and refused to put myself in the situation. People look at a job in retail extremely negatively, therefore, the majority of them think they can degrade you by making you feel small and wait until they finish their conversation. I'm not cutting hair, giving pedicures, or massages. And even at that I would hope people would have a bit more respect for those that do work in the service industry. Because in all honesty pretty much all jobs are providing some type of service to people. I'm sick and tired of feeling bad about myself because I have a college degree and I work in retail. Because if people even knew and understood half of what I do they might think differently. However, I can't expect anyone to care because I don't care about hte jobs other people do. I don't look down on people though for working in fast food or for cleaning houses. It's their job and they are just trying to get by like the rest of us. It's taken a lot for me to get to the point where I don't feel like complete shit because I work in retail and I obviously still have my down days. But I take pride in what I do and I probably make more money than people think. If that's what you want to base success on. Do you base success on how much a person works? Or do you base it on their quality of work? What is success based on in the end? I think it comes within all of us. I can sit here and say I don't care about what other people think but that's obviously a complete lie because I do. I wouldn't be writing this if I didn't. I will always take pride in what I do. Even if I was making 8 dollars an hour I would still take pride in the job. It's my motivation and my work ethic. Anyhoo, sorry about that tangent but it feels good..hehe

It's The End Of The World

I don't have much to say except that I forgot how much I love the song, "End Of The World" by R.E.M. It's an oldie, but such a goodie. TEEHEE! Oh, and go see the movie "STEP UP 2. THE STREETS." WICKED DANCING.

PIG By Adam Robbins

Check out this short film by a friend of a friend of mine. My friend Jeremy acts in it..hehe. His roommate, Adam, directed the film and starred in it. It won an award. I think it is fantastic.

To Dream

I was sitting at work today thinking about the possibilities of getting a new job. I became frustrated because I feel so defeated and limited to what I can do. So, I turned it around and thought about what my all-time dream job would be. A job that I know if given the chance I would be spectacular at it. I have always wanted to put the music to tv, movies, commercials, and so on. I cannot tell you the number of times I'm watching TV or a movie and commenting about the music they are using and how either I agree with it or how I would have used a different song. I feel that the music used in tv and movies is what draws people in and is what makes that particular moment on screen that much more powerful. We remember scenes not only by the actor or actress's performance but by the music that was used. Why do we always remember films by Cameron Crowe and Craig Brewer? We remember them because of the music they use. We leave the theatre remembering the details of the entire movie. I want to do that. I want to make people get lost in a show or film because of the music. I know that I get lost in music every single day. It never ever ends. Oh to dream.....

Finally, I can breathe a little more...

Do you ever do something that makes you feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders? Do you ever do something that makes it easier to breathe? Today, I seem to be able to breathe somewhat easier. I seem to feel better about myself and more true to myself. It's amazing how being true to yourself and sharing yourself with the people you love can be so unbelievably scary at times. But it's just how it is and it's something I've dealt with for quite sometime now....My family finally knows about my sexuality. And I say that with a huge sigh of relief. I cannot begin to explain how amazing I feel and how so very grateful I am for their continue love and support. They make me very proud to be their daughter and sister. It's times like these that I look at my family with more love and respect than I have ever realized. They love me for all that I am and for everything that I'm not as well. I attribute much of who I am, my strength, and my sense of self to them. I know that I will continue to have challenges regarding everything that makes up me, but I also understand that I have the love and support of my family and friends and honestly, it makes those hard times seem a lot more bearable. THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!

BOYZ II MEN

Last night Reggie and I saw BOYZ II MEN perform at the Canyon Club in Calabasas, CA. It was absolutely awesome....hahaha. I was surprised at the mix crowd that attended but understand why there were so many different age groups there. They have a motown album right now, which would pertain to our parents generation, but I honestly love the oldies as well. They took it back to the early 90's with songs like, "On Bended Knee, Water Runs Dry, I'll Make Love To You, End Of The Road", and so on. And to top it all off, for their encore performance they broke out with "Motown Philly..." It was flipping wicked. I had such a blast and was so glad we got reservations because we were able to have a table, eat dinner, and have some drinks. It was money well spent. :) ABC, BBD....

A Vacation

I am taking a vacation back to Colorado at the end of March. I wasn't able to go last year because I had just started at my new store and I didn't feel comfortable leaving my new job. So, all of you get excited and I look forward to seeing as many of you as I can. :)

Superbowl

GO GIANTS!!

I initially wasn't a fan of either of the teams this year for the Superbowl. However, I knew I didn't want the Patriots to win because I don't like Tom Brady and I don't like Patriots fans. I never have. They are like Boston Red Sox fans to me. Sorry if that offends anyone..haha.
Anyway, the game was absolutely fabulous and I can't decide if I had more fun watching the game or watching my good friend Jaimee drop "F Bombs" left in right..haha. It was good beer, good food, and good people. Yay Eli Manning!! :)