Stupidity!!

It seems that during any holiday I am reminded once again of the stupidity that truly does exist on this Earth. I don't like stupid people!! And I am amazed everyday at the stupid people that grace my presence. Today, people should be outside having barbecues and drinking beer. And yet, they are inside asking me three different times how to open a cooler. It was absurd!! Or what I enjoyed most was the lady who screamed from across the store, "Someone needs to open the damn fitting room!!" That was awesome!!! Those are the times when you can't help but laugh at what is surrounding you and thank God you are the way you are...haha!!

Memorial Day

Just wanted to wish everyone a Happy Memorial Day!! I hope you all are drinking lots and eating hot dogs and hamburgers!! FUN TIMES!!

Dr. FeelGood

I went to the Doctor today!!! I haven't gone to the Doctor since moving out here because I am crazy and lame because I miss my old Doctor. This guy was a 109 year old Asian guy who barely spoke English. Freaked me out at first and then I realized he knew what he was talking about. But it's just not as easy as it was going to the Doctor out here. I have to go to three different places to get three different things done. In Colorado, I could have gotten pretty much all of them done at her office. Oh well, it is what it is and at least I feel better about myself for finally going to the Doctor!! All you do here is drive anyway and then sit in a traffic!!

MUEVETE

Hi All!! I am back finally!! It's been kind of a hectic two weeks and I honestly think I need to cetch up on some sleep. I haven't really slept since my birthday, which is okay I guess. My dad and Ann came in last week for the weekend and so did my brother who just left this morning. It's been an extremely busy time!!! I managed to basically burn my arms off at the beach last weekend and they just now decided to start peeling. My arms are starting to loom somewhat like Michael Jackson's face!! This also sucks because tonight I am suppose to be going to a Quinceinera and what I am wearing shows a lot of skin, so I think I need to choose another outfit!! Last night my bro and I went to a restaurant called "The Ivy", which is where the paparazzi and the stars hang out. We got sat by the kitchen, which became a running joke the rest of the evening..haha. My bro even had me pretend to go to the bathroom acouple times just so I could scope the place out for anybody famous..haha. However, it was dark and I had a gimlet and a bottle of wine in me and everyone looked famous to me..hehe!! Anyhoo, it has been a good couple of weeks and I love love love seeing my family. They make this being out here on my own a lot easier!!! Hope all is well!!

When was it?

When is the last time you cried? I mean truly cried!! I am trying to sit here and figure it out for myself. I mean I have cried at movies and tv shows and occassionally get misty thinking about things, but I can't remember the last time I cried. I didn't even cry when I left Colorado back in April. I wanted to cry. Oh God how I wanted to cry, but I didn't. I feel like there was a time in my life when all I did was cry. Or I use to cry about everything. See, I think crying is good and healthy. I think you release a lot when you truly just sit and breakdown. I just haven't been able to lately. And I am beginning to think I need to. And I know that sounds strange, but I think at times I just have this shit pile up in me and I don't even know it and then I snap or something. But I haven't snapped yet!! And maybe I don't need to snap. However, I think I need to cry!!

P.S. My dad and ann are in town. My bro comes in tomorrow! Blogging will resume later!!

Just Thoughts

Another birthday has come and gone!!! I have to say that this year I had an absolute blast. I can't even begin to tell you how much fun I had on my actual birthday. Too many memories to share and there are things that only I would understand. I think I have realized that birthdays are so much more than the presents you receive from friends and family. It's about getting calls from people you haven't heard from in ages. It's about realizing all over again how important your family and friends are to you. I loved this year!!! I mean I love all my birthdays but this year was good. It was fun and I have some people in my life that really bring me happiness. I mean a happiness that only I can understand. And I just want to tell them over and over how much joy they bring to my life!! I am 26 and have no idea what that means. But what I do know is that I have people who love me. And maybe that is all that truly matters. In fact, I know that is all the truly matters!!

My Bro and my niece!!

Trey and Keelen

Here's To Another One

Dear Diary,

Tomorrow is my 26th birthday!! Can you believe it? I'll be 26 years-old and I am not sure how I feel about that. I've never been one to get worked upset about getting older. In fact, I actually really love my birthday. However, every year when my birthday comes and goes it makes me think about things. Because that is all I do anyway is think. I feel pretty good about things in my life right now. I mean I guess I honestly do. I mean, there are always things that could make my life so much better, but what's the point of dwelling and focusing on those things. I have a famiyl who loves me, friends who love me, a job, a roof over my head, a car, and the list goes on. I guess sometimes what I wish is that my heart would not get the best of me. I guess sometimes I just wish I didin't feel so much. Whether it be for a person or for a thing I just wish I could just ignore it. But I can't and it drives me crazy at times. I feel we all think about our lives and wonder where we are going and wonder if we are truly making a difference. I mean I hope I am. I think I am...I know I am just rambling and not making any sense. But maybe that is what so many of my thoughts are. Maybe I don't even make sense to myself! Whatever it may be I know I am doing my best to make it in the world and I am lovin getting up in the morning and seeing what might cross my path today. For tonight though and the rest of the weekend I shall celebrate and enjoy!

It's A Girl

So, I decided to delete my original post regarding my niece because I was so excited when I typed it that it didn't make sense to me. Anyhoo, as most of you know my brother and his wife had a baby girl on April 30th. Her name is Keelen and she weighed 8lbs.5ounces and was 20 inches long. My mother informed me that I was bigger, which I then said must have foreshadowed the rest of my life. Her initials will be KBB and mine are BKB, which I find adorable..haha!! So, it's official, I am now auntie B!! I plan to spoil her as if she was my own and love her even more!!!!