Desire

It's pretty amazing when you desire something or someone. It's even more amazing when you, yourself are desired. It feels good. And sometimes it feels so good that every worry and concern seems to melt away for a brief moment in time. Yes..I enjoy desire.

Sick

I hate it when my body finally just gives up on me. And then my insides explode and my face kind of blows up as well. I should probably take the advice of a friend and go see a doctor but I always think this shit will pass. Urg. It's amazing what stress can do to your body. I hope everyone else is healthy out there. :)

El Scorcho

Wow! It is blazing hot outside. I'm so glad I went to the beach yesterday and for once actually got full body in the ocean. I usually just stick my feet in the water and that is it. But yesterday wasa different. I knew that I had to get into the water for sure yesterday..haha. It was a good weekend as it was one of my best friend's birthday on Saturday. We had a weekend full of drinking, laughing, talking, and very little sleep. I will recover all week from it for sure. We were audited on Friday and I did the worse I've ever done on the audit, but I knew that would happen with the new auditor. And the only thing I have to say about her is that she really is not a very nice person and it has nothing to do with her getting the job and me not. I gave her a chance and within 2 hours realized she was a bitch and extremely unprofessional. So, anyway I've decided not to let it get to me. It is what it is and we just have to deal with it. Other than that my life is pretty boring, but I kind of like it like that. Oh and I lost my voicec and my throat is killing me. POOR ME! :)

What's the point?

What's the point of letting work stress you out? Seriously, what is the point of letting "my job" stress me out? It's totally and completely not worth it. Things are going to be how they are. I can do all that I can do and it still may not be enough but I have to be okay with it. We have a new auditor, a bit of a new audit, and just other things at work and I've been so stressed all week. I mean out of my head at times. I've come to realize that it's not worth my health. At the end of the day I'm going to go home and still be the same person I was and am. There are many reasons why I'm frustrated with the job and probably a lot has to do with not getting the promotion, but that isn't even all of it anymore. Hmm...I think I want to be a mailman..haha. I'M SERIOUS!!! Everytime I see UPS, FEDEX, or USPS I just think about how cool it would be. :)

Lake Tahoe and a Wedding

So, I just got back from a weekend and wedding in Lake Tahoe for a very dear old friend of mine from college. Beautiful Scenery. Beautiful Wedding. Beautiful People. Tahoe is absolutely gorgeous and I am so grateful that I've had the opportunity to go to some breathtaking places this summer. The people I knew at the wedding I honestly hadn't seen for like 3 years. It was amazing to see all of them again and reminisce about the past and learn about the present. As ridiculous as it is to say we all have come into our own and honestly have grown up. I love weddings. It would take a lot for me not to enjoy a wedding. One of the things I love about weddings is that it brings the past back together again. And it gives you the opportunity for a moment to relive some of the glorious moments you had with these people. And it also reminds you of the fact that just because you do not see the people, or talk to the people a lot, they still hold a very dear place in your heart. It was a fabulous weekend and I'm so thankful Nicci let me be a part of it. I'm extremely happy and excited for Nicci and Jim. I was there at the beginning of it all and it's amazing to see what has become of them. Their love is something to admire and something I most definitely hope for. Cheers to you Nicci and Jim! :)

So You Think You Can Dance

This season I have become a ginormous fan of the reality show, "So You Think You Can Dance." For those of you who haven't ever watched the show it is a lot like "American Idol" only with dancing obviously. I find it better than "American Idol." I think the talent that lies within each one of these dances is absolutely astounding. Because they aren't just staying with the "one" genre of dance they are use to. They are handed a number of styles of dance and they have to make it work. Yes, "American Idol" does something similar, but singing to me is different than dancing. And that just might be my own personal opinion. Anyway, I have developed a new love and respect for contemporary dancing. It's probably the most emotional type of dancing there is. Tonight, I found myself in tears because one of the contemporary dances was literally so beautiful and touching. And this isn't the first time that I been brought to tears. I know it's completely cheesy of me, but anyone who knows me knows that I love love LOVE to dance. The show is fantastic!!