It Takes Time

I feel a little better than I did last week and at the beginning of this week. I think it just will take some extra time. I, originally had tomorrow off but plans have changed so I decided to go on and work. I kind of wish I had kept the day off and used it to relax, but extra money never hurts a person. I've been thinking a lot about things that have happened these past couple weeks and even things that have happened in the past year. I wish things could have gone a different way. I wish maybe I could have breathed more with certain situations and not gotten so wrapped up in them. I think it created a pressure and an intensity that didn't need to happen. At least not for awhile. I started focusing so much on the future and it kind of intensified the situation. I wish I could have one more chance just see if things could go somewhat differently. I may have the same result, but at least we could see. I am slowly coming to terms with things and I feel as if I get a tad better everyday. I want this person in my life forever. And if that means we are just friends, then I am truly okay with that. My life is better because of these past six months and this one truly incredible person. :)

Happy Memorial Day

Congrats to my dad on his rockin run in the Bolder Boulder! Well done Pops!!

As for my life, there's nothing more to say then I just lost what seemed so perfect to me and was for the first time in reach. :(

Chin up though. Chin up!

Better

The work week is finally over and I have to say I'm very happy about it. It's been an emotionally challenging week and it's exhausted me. Not to mention we were audited on Thursday and I'm waiting for the next step with the possible job. I'm not sure what I shall do this weekend, but once again try and relax. Next week will be a four day week and I will be having a visitor. Someone who I can't wait to see and see where this adventure takes us. :)

A Broken Heart

Last night my heart was broken by someone I love. Today my heart was broken again. I've never felt the way I feel right now and I can't believe I am so completely crushed. I gave my heart and soul to someone and in the end it seemed to have backfired on me. Thank you to all of you who have listened to me and been there for me. Even in this state of just crapiness I feel blessed to have you all. Oh, and for those of you who I don't talk to please do not worry. I will be fine! :)

Long Time

It's been awhile since I have written. My dad visited me last week and then my brother has been here all week. He left this morning, which is always a weird and lonely feeling. I've been overwhelmed for awhile with looking for a new place to live and also possibly getting a huge promotion at my work. I have a phone interview on Monday for a Regional Auditor position for the Sports Authority. I'd actually be at the corporate level and that is something I never thought possible for me. I'd travel all of Southern California, Vegas, and Hawaii. I'm trying not to get my hopes up for the position but it's hard not to because it's something I really and truly want. It seems that I have some important people on my side on the whole thing and that is comforting. Phone interviews are hard and it doesn't help that I haven't had a voice really for the past couple weeks. I plan on sleeping all weekend if at all possible..haha. Anyway, for as stressed and tired as I am it was awesome to see my dad and bro. I miss them as always and they remind me of where I came from and who I am. It's refreshing and I need it every now and then.

Another Birthday Over With

Cinco De Blair was a success as it always is!! It's always a good day because I hear from people I haven't heard from in awhile and the birthday messages always make my day! THANK YOU!! This year seemed much more relaxed than years past. It's like every year "birthdays" become less and less of a "big event." And I realized this year that I'm okay with that. I'm okay with having my few closest friends with me, rather than, a ginormous group that you really don't even get to talk to. Fortunately, my good friend Reggie spent the day with me where he treated me to birthday pancakes, helped me find a shirt for my tie, drank vodka slurpees, and then treated me to a grilled cheese at Cafe 50's. Later, Mike and Britt came over and we drank and listened to music before we went out. The Circle Bar was packed, but not as bad as usual. And More played great tunes and I was all over the place!! It was good time!! Next year may not be a big party but it will still always be CINCO DE BLAIR! :)

Cinco De Blair

It's approaching fast people!! Can you believe it? I'm going to be 27 years-old!! What does it all mean?...haha!! If you all want you can fly in to LaLa Land and come party with me and a few peeps and make fun of me..haha!! Anyway, I feel good!! Oh, my niece turned 1 year old on Monday!! And my mom turns (blank) on May 6th. She'd be mad if I revealed her real age...haha. Okay.. MISS YOU ALL!! And yes, I know it is self-absorbed to post a bulletin about my birthday! :)