Gossip Folks

I will be the first person to say that I LOVE gossip. I really should be a gossip columnist for the entertainment world. But there comes a point when even I know when to shut up. For instance, I am going crazy right now at work because there is so much gossip that circulates through that place. And someone is always talking trash about someone else. Now, because I am a manager I have to hear all about it and everyone assumes that I can make it better. Not to mention that they all feel the most comfortable talking to me about everything. It's a test for me to remain neutral and remain an authority. I mean, they even call me when I am not at work to discuss the trials and tribulations of their lives. Don't get me wrong because I really love talking with them and value the fact that they feel comfortable with me. That is one of the things that makes a good authority figure. I just wish they would grow up to some degree and realize that this is the way life is. Come to work and do your thing and then go home. I mean, we work in retail. It's not like we are publicist or anything. Honestly people, who throws a shoe?

Tracy Chapman

"We gotta make a decision.
Leave tonight or live and die this way."
-Tracy Chapman

Life is like....

I am a person who becomes addicted to anything having to do with pop culture. It could be music, television, movies, celebrities, etc. It almost become an obsession...hahaha!!! Most of the time when I find myself liking a new television show it is because of the friendship and the commroderie that exist between the characters. It is something usually I can relate to and something I also miss at times.
I started thinking about all my friends and where we are all at now. I guess I never really understood the true meaning of friendship until I moved away. And that is probably not necessarily true, but it has just been intensified since moving to Cali. The craziest thing is that we are all growing up now. We all have drama in our lives, but each of our drama is different than the other's. And yeah, it would be awesome in a "Hollywood type way" to see your friends at the coffee shop everyday and discuss the trials and tribulations that are occurring at that moment. That would be amazing. I would honestly love that. But at the same time I have realized that I don't need to talk or see people everyday to know they love me. I don't even need to live in the same state as them to love them. And that to me is almost even greater than having my best friend living down the street from me. Yes, it gets hard at times and there are those moments when I could really use my posse. I could really go for a beer or two with a friend not in California. But this cannot be the case.
And I also have learned how to deal with the speed bumps that we hit along the way. You go through life and you have your low points and you wonder when you will be okay and then one day you wake up and you really are okay. And you wait for the next speed bump to come along in your life. I have learned to always look forward to something. I always think of something in the future to get me through the coming months. It could be two weeks away or it could even be two years away, but there is always something there. Like, when I moved out here I looked forward to when my family would be visiting me in December and January. And after that was over I looked forward to my trip back to Colorado. And now, I look forward to my birthday and what I might possibly be doing. It seems cheesy and lame but it works I promise you. Also, find things throughout the day that make you laugh or smile. It might be a thought, a picture, a song, a person, and so on. I live to laugh. Laughter is everything to me. I literally get a kick out of everything. And it is healthy and it makes me not take things so seriously all of the time. I enjoy life most of the time because of this.
Anyhoo, that's enough of my preaching. I just felt good today and I wanted to share it with you all. There is so much to see and so many people to meet. I don't want to miss out on that and I don't want anyone else to either.

The Circle Bar

So, I do not feel well this morning. I had a little too much fun last night. Jaimee and I decided to go to The Circle Bar because we had been wanting to go dancing for th longest time. We decided to take a cab there because it meant no one would have to worry about driving home, no parking, and we could have a few cocktails before we left. Yes, cabs do cost money but in the end it is totally worth it. You never have to wait long for them to arrive at your house because they are everywhere in this town. The Circle Bar literally looks like a circle. It does not have a huge dance floor and I guess that is okay. They played good music and we met some pretty cool people. Drinks were to expensive and I was too generous to people I didn't know, but it was totally worth it. At one point a couple ran into me and my straw went down my throat. I made a joke to them and the next thing you know they bought me a drink. They felt bad and they thought it was funny. Sometimes my humor can get me things...hehehe!! All and all it was a fabulous evening. I cannot do it all of the time because it cost too much and the morning after is always a pain. The LA night life is pretty fun I have to say and another reason I like it here.

What the....?

So, yesterday I had posted some names that I might change my name to when I become famous...yeah right!! Then, my blog got all messed up and I had to erase them and so now it is gone. So, here I go again. This is important people and I need any advice on my new name that you can give me. This will make or break me...hahaha!

1) The Notorious B.K.B.(Yes, it is a former rapper, but it sounds so smooth!)
2) BlairB(This is how it would have to be spelled...no spaces.)
3) BKLegs(Only my family and some of my friends would understand this.)
4) Bling Dong...hahaha!
5) BlairK(why not?)
6) Boo Pac( Yes, again another rapper, but how cool is this?)

Hmm...that's about all I have thus far! Any feedback is appreciated!!

Is It Alright?

"Is it alright for me to feel this way?
Your mind leads my mind to a world more beautiful."
-Kinnie Starr

I Need A Hero

Typical conversation between my mom and I.....

Blair: Mom, thanks for the money you sent me!

Mom: Why you are welcome!.....What money?

Blair: For St. Patrick's Dad you dumbass!

Mom: Oh yeah!

Anyhoo, I was working out today and the song "I need a hero" came on my ipod. I love this song. I mean really love it. And I came to conclusion while going buck wild on the elliptical listening to it. There is only one song that gives me chills throughout the entire song and it is this one....hahahaha!! I can't explain it! I don't know if it's the whole Footloose thing or what, but I have goose pimples during the entire song.

You say...Stay!!

On my way home in this treacherous rain that has managed to overtake Southern California I was thinking about all the things I want right now in my life...hahaha!! And I have decided to share them with you all. Now, remember these are things I want and may not necessarily need when all is said and done.

1) I would like to wake up next to someone I truly love every morning. And I guess I shouldn't say every morning, but every now and then it would be nice.
2) I would like to have there be someone that is the last thing I think about before I go to sleep at night and the first person I think about when I wake up in the morning.
3) Per question #2, I would like someone to feel that way about me.
4) I would like someone to hold hands with. I like holding hands. Someone to sit by me in a room full of people and just reach over and rub my hand or let me rub/hold theirs.
5) I would ultimately like to love and be loved in return like everyone does. I want to know what it feels like and even what it feels like to have a broken heart due to a romantic relationship.
6) I would like a silver VW Golf! I think they are the cutest cars and would fit me perfectly...hahahah!!
7) I would like a hug from my mom. I haven't been able to hug her since August 25th.(This is something I need.)
8) I would like at least one family member or one friend to live closer to me.
9) At times, I want there to be someone who needs me so much that they drive themselves crazy every now and then.
10) I want to be the person who produces soundtracks for movies, tv, commercials, and etc.

I am sure I could continue with this list but these are just some things that came to mind. I know a lot of them are cheesy but it is how I feel. Goodluck to me!HAHAHA!!

Babalu

Last night my roommates and I ate at a restaurant called Babalu. It has caribbean style food and I must say that it was frickin fantastic. I never like Sundays because I hate the fact that the next day is Monday and I have to be back at work. And even if I didn't have to be back at work I would still hate them. Sunday is the day when I think the most about my life and ponder stupid shit. But I have always from the time I can remember enjoyed a good dinner on a Sunday night. It's good to end your weekend with one and I guess start the next week with one.

Do you know who just walked by me?

I was in Fat Burger and the blonde guy from the first season of Punked asked me if I knew where the straws were. I told him where they were and when I realized who he was I said, "You are from Punked!! You are fricking hilarious!" He smiled and thanked me and we went our own ways. Later, I was talking to my mom on the phone on the 3rd Street Promenade when Christian Bale walked by me. I said to my mom, "Do you know who just walked by me?" and of course she was funny and said Dustin Hoffman. I love living here for this exact reason. You can be standing on the corner minding your own business and someone will walk by you and it really will not even phase you. That's just the way LA LA Land is!!

Rain

It is suppose to rain the next five days here in Southern California. I guess in the end that really doesn't effect me whatsoever. It just means the driving will suck. Today it took me two hours to get home. Sometimes I debate whether I should pull off onto the side of the road and take a nap until the traffic clears up. But then I realize that is both stupid and the traffic will never completely clear up. Such is life!!

Happy St. Patrick's Day

Happy St. Patrick's Day Everyone!! Be Safe and Have Fun!!
My St. Patrick's Day consisted of a few different things. First, I had to fix the toilet in the women's bathroom because that is what I do. I was a plumber in my formal life and of course no one else takes the initiative so here I go. Second, I watched Asset Protection tackle a shoplifter to the ground, handcuff him, and then bring him into the back office. The guy ended smelling like he shat himself and my store manager and I gagged everytime the door opened. I ended up spraying lysol for I don't know how long after the guy was arrested. And finally, as a manager you get to listen to a lot of complaints. That includes complaints from your staff. When you are approached by an associate with a problem they have you listen and then you decide whether to confront the store manager on it. In this case, I was text messaged to call one of my cashiers at work and ended up talking to her for a half hour about a situation she was having. All and all, it was a pretty eventful day and now I am going to celebrate my favorite holiday!!! YEA!!!

Old Man Number 2

Of course I was walking today when a 109 year-old man stopped me and aske me how I was doing and then proceeded to tell me I have a perfect face. I thanked him and told him to have a great day. As I walked away I just laughed to myself wondering, "What the hell is going on in this city?".

Beautimous

I got off work very early today because my store manager and I had to go to some training session which ended early as well. So, here I am on the computer when I should be at the beach. It's so beautiful today. The sky is blue and there is not a cloud in sight. It's days like this when I couldn't be happier that I moved here.
My store manager said something funny today about me. Her words were, "Seriously, you wouldn't know Blair was from Colorado. She is hysterical!" I am not really sure how to take that. People picture Colorado as a state full of rednecks. But I guess in the end it is a compliment because she thinks I am funny. Allright, I think I am off to the beach!! Holla!

In The Sun

Okay, so everyone knows that I am a gigantic music buff. Music is my life and is what truly defines me. People also know that I have a new favorite song every week. But, there's not a lot of songs that can bring me to tears or that somehow make sense of everything that is going on around me. Well, I have discovered another song and everyone has got to download it or buy the CD. It seriously can only be described as beautiful. Everytime I hear it I just have to sit down. I know it sounds cheesy but it is true.

In The Sun
By Joseph Arthur


I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

May god’s love be with you
Always
May god’s love be with you

I know I would apologize if I could see your eyes
’cause when you showed me myself I became someone else
But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You can’t keep awake

May god’s love be with you
Always
May god’s love be with you

’cause if I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
If I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
You

I don’t know anymore
What it’s for
I’m not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
’cause I been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe you’re not even sure what it’s for
Any more than me

May god’s love be with you
Always
May god’s love be with you

Back To Work

I go back to work tomorrow since going on vacation over a week ago. Honestly, I don't really want to go back because I know that I am going to have so much to do when I get back there tomorrow. It's going to be total chaos and there will be know time to ease into the situation. Oh well, if I didn' work I would eventually get bored I guess. Tonight I will not sleep because I never sleep on Sundays and I especially will not sleep tonight. After a week I will be back to normal with things but for now it kind of sucks.

That Don't Impress Me Much

I am amazed at how many people in this world spend time trying to impress people. And the majority of the time it's impressing people who in the end do not matter. I understand the fact that we all want to be liked. In the end, nobody really wants to know if someone dislikes them. But I believe that at times people get way too caught up in the bullshit. I've watched so many people in my life spend endless amounts of time trying to impress people. And it's amazing to watch because when they are with me they are a completely different person. It doesn't matter how they are around me because they know I don't care. But then I will watch them around others and it's like I don't even know them. Now, I know I have been a victim of this at different times in my life. But, in all honesty, I don't even know how to go about impressing someone. Because by me going out of my way to impress someone means that I am in a uncomfortable situation. It will be obvious to those around me that I am not comfortable with whatever i am doing at that time. I'll be the first to say that I want be loved by everyone...hahaha. Well, at least the majority of people. But I also am aware that people love me because I am real and true. The day I appear to be "fake" is the day that a lot of the people I care about are going to tell me they don't know me anymore. So, to everyone and anyone who is reading this, be true to yourself. And be true to those people who love you for who you are. That is what matters in the end!!

No More Late Fees

So, as everyone knowos Blockbuster has no more late fees. But of course there is a cetch to this whole thing. If you need to keep a movie longer then the alloted time you must call and they can extend it free of charge. If you don't call you either get charged a late fee or they end up selling you the movie at retail price. So, in the end you are getting screwed still. So, for all of you who are reading this do not be fooled by Blockbuster. They have to have another way of making money. Oh and I was in Kinko's the other day and you had to pay a quarter to use the bathroom. Absolutely Absurd!

True Love Will Find You In The End

My good friend Flippy sent me these song lyrics today! I thought I would share them with you all!

True Love Will Find You In The End
Originally done by Daniel Johnston
Covered by Beck
                         

True love will find you in the end                           
You'll find out just who was your friend
Don’t be sad, I know you will,
But don’t give up until
True love finds you in the end.


This is a promise with a catch
Only if you're looking will it find you
‘Cause true love is searching too
But how can it recognize you
Unless you step out into the light?
But don’t give up until
True love finds you in the end.
 

Colorful Colorado

I just arrived back from Colorado this evening! It's weird because the only airport I have ever arrived home to was DIA and now I was leaving DIA. Abby dropped me off and it was tough but I kept my goodbye short and went on my way. My plane ended up being canceled and I had to go stand by on another flight but it was only a half hour later. The cab ride home took forever and as I paid the guy I realized how much money I had spent on this trip...HAHAHA!! However, I would do it all over again if Rach asked me to be there for another major event in her life. So, here I am not having written in a week and so I will do my best to inform you all of the past week's events.

Wednesday, March 2nd:
I arrived in Colorado at 11:45pm and I couldn't believe how excited I was to see Abby and everyone else. I stepped off that plane and I could actually breathe. I smiled at knowing my way around DIA and being in a familiar place. My luggage didn't make it to the carousel until like 12:30am because they didn't have a crew. I mean, how much can really be going on at 12:30 in the morning? I got teary eyed when I saw Abby and being the wonderful person she is she had a bud light waiting for me when I got in the car.

Thursday, March 3rd:
Abs and I headed to Denver for the Bachelorette festivities around 4. We stopped at fascinations on the way there to pick up a gag gift for Rach. As we were leaving the sales guy said, "Come back and see us again!" For some reason, this made me laugh!!We pulled up to the hotel and of course Abby makes a comment about how she gets nervous in nice hotels. I make a joke saying that we are white trash and that is why. Rach and Steph showed up shortly after us and we got ready for the nights festivities. WE ended up cabbing it to Cheesecake downtown and then went to sing sing and Lodo's. Such an amazing time and I just realized how much all over again I love these girls. I was able to dance and laugh all night, which are my two favorite things. And I got to dance with my Rach, which is right up there as well. After we cabbed it home we went on an excursion to the 7-11 by our hotel. Of course we were idiots and I managed to wear my sunglasses for whatever reason

Friday, March 4th:
The events consisted of lunch and rehearsal at the church and then the dinner rehearsal at Magiano's. It was awesome. I loved being around my girls. At one point before the night even really got going Rach's step sister leaned over to Steph and asked if that was what happened to people when they go drunk?...HAHAHA! She was referring to Abby and I. But we weren't drunk and that is just how we are together. We laugh and are very loud. We sat up at the hotel for a bit after all was done as we prepared for Rach's big day. It was a good moment!

Saturday, March 5th:
We awoke at 6:45am to start getting our hair and make-up done. As I was sitting there in the room watching all of us get ready I couldn't help but smile because I realized that Rach picked all of us to be her bridesmaids for a reason. Each one of us brought something to Rach's lives. WE all belonged there and we all had one thing in common. And that is our love for Rach. All of us said that we would do anything for Rach and she was our girl. It felt good and I loved being around all of them. Steph ended up getting us free champagne and a diet coke delivered on a tray because the hotel kept screwin things up....HAHAHA!! Rach looked absolutely gorgeous and honestly if she had asked me to marry her that day I probably would have said yes...hahaha. Weddings are happy but sad at the same time. See, it's the beginning for Rach but to some degree the end for myself and the rest of her friends. ANd I don't mean as far as the friendship. I mean, there's an innocence that goes away when you see a friend get married. It's a reality check and it puts things into perspective. But all and all, I am beyond happy for my Rach and I just wish her so much happiness.

Sunday and on:
I will not go into the details of all these days. All I can say is that I was able to see my dad and Ann, Brandy, Jenica, Kim, Flippy, Mel C. and etc. I only wish I had more time to see everyone. But to all of you who are reading this...thank you from the bottom of my heart. I miss and love you all!!

So, here I am now at the present moment with a million emotions running through my head. Colorado didn't feel like home anymore and I think that was good. I had feared that when I got to Colorado I would be sad and wonder why I left. But I know why I left and I know I had to do it. See, being around all those people made me want to stay for a brief moment because it was so much fun. But then reality hit and I realized that the likelihood of us all getting together all the time on a regular basis was slim to none. I mean and that is not a bad thing. We all have our own lives now and different priorities. I guess we are all growing up.....My final thought on this is that we have all changed. I know it has only been five months since I left but we all are different in our own way. And it isn't even a bad thing. I think we all seem at more peace and just at a good place. My friend freaked out on me and said that I had changed and was too mellow. She eventually realized that maybe that wasn't a bad thing....My feelings will never change that I miss these people or I guess I should say all of you. That will always hold true. You will always be in my thoughts and I want to believe in my heart that you will all always be in my life. Because I need you. I can't do what I do without your love and support. I wish everyday that I had one of you physically here to share my thoughts with and to laugh with, but I take comfort in knowing that I can just call you if need be. So, I end the longest blog of my life by saying that I hope I haven't changed too much. And if I have I hope it is for the better. My heart will always be huge and my love with always be endless.

Consider This An Invitation

Well, I by this time tomorrow I will be sitting in LAX waiting to head back to Colorado. I cannot even begin to tell you all the different emotions that are running through me. It's going to be an awesome time and I am so excited and honored to be in Dahlberg's wedding. My blog will be on hold until I get back next Thursday. I hope all of you are well and I hope to see you while I am in Colorado.