When was it?

When is the last time you cried? I mean truly cried!! I am trying to sit here and figure it out for myself. I mean I have cried at movies and tv shows and occassionally get misty thinking about things, but I can't remember the last time I cried. I didn't even cry when I left Colorado back in April. I wanted to cry. Oh God how I wanted to cry, but I didn't. I feel like there was a time in my life when all I did was cry. Or I use to cry about everything. See, I think crying is good and healthy. I think you release a lot when you truly just sit and breakdown. I just haven't been able to lately. And I am beginning to think I need to. And I know that sounds strange, but I think at times I just have this shit pile up in me and I don't even know it and then I snap or something. But I haven't snapped yet!! And maybe I don't need to snap. However, I think I need to cry!!

P.S. My dad and ann are in town. My bro comes in tomorrow! Blogging will resume later!!