Makes You Think About Good People

Today, I visited my friend at Veterans Park, which is located by my house. She had done the "Aids Ride" from San Francisco to Los Angeles and the closing ceremonies ended up being right by my house. It was a quick visit as I saw her for about a half hour and then she went to be with her family. Nonetheless, it was good to see a friendly face, especially these days. Before all the riders rode in I stood observing everything and all the people surrounding me. There were all walks of life there. There were blacks, gays, mexican, lesbians, and so on. Everyone came together for the same reason. To support someone they knew in the ride and for many of them to remember someone who had passed due to AIDS or was currently living with it. It was inspiring to say the least. There were families and loved ones everywhere. There were couples and friends and even though I was by myself it was so very refreshing to see and be surrounded by. The whole thing really puts things into perspective. I've had a very rough three weeks. And my stresses continue to add up. But when you go to something like this event and you see the people and you hear the stories suddenly these things in your life or my life seem so small. As I had one of my many breakdowns with my mother today she said to me, "Blair, this is not a tragedy. It feels like it, but it's not a tragedy." And she is right..completely right. If it wasn't this it would be something else and things could be so much worse. Things will always eventually fall into place. It might be at the very last minute possible but they always fall into place. Until another thing comes along and cetches you off guard. That's just how life is and that is how we grow as individuals. There's a light at the end of the tunnel. Even if I can't see it at all..I know it is there. ..And I know this blog is my ramblings and that it may not make sense but that's how my mind is working these days. :)