It's No Good

Yesterday was a craptacular day! And I really shouldn't say the whole day was because it was actually only the first like 4 hours after I woke up! But I have been battling with a certain something for probably what seems like the past year...haha! Well, not that long but close to it. Yesterday I woke up and something happened that just completely ticked me off and filled me with a lot of anger..haha. And I am not an angry person at all. I do have a short fuse, but I have definitely got better with that. I left my house pretty irritated and went and worked out. I almost hyper-ventilated on the elliptical because I just kept thinking of things and getting myself worked up. So, on the way home some car pissed me off and as I was turning and she was driving by I flipped her off and screamed something at her. Now, mind you she was already angry with me because in Los Angeles everyone is in a hurry and if you don't move fast enough people get pissed and start honking at you. But anyway, after I did that to her I drove away laughing and telling myself, "Wow! That was stupid!"..haha!! But it was one of those times when you just didn't want to mess with me. As the day progress I calmed down a great deal and my anger turned more to just a sadness I suppose. But it was good yesterday because I didn't really talk to anyone and pretty much hung out by myself. I probably need more days like that. And I mean days on the weekend like that! What I am battling with is all me! It's nothing serious when all is said and done. It's my own emotional turmoil! And I really only want to talk about it with a select few! Anyhoo, today I have to go to work as that happens at times, which is fine! It might be good to go to work on a Sunday and just keep my mind off of things. I usually hate Sundays because they just suck to me!! Oh bother....