One Year Later...........

On September 24, 2004 I arrived in Los Angeles, California. Here I am, a year later, and I am thanking my lucky stars that I am actually out here and in the words of Justin Timberlake, "I'm Lovin it..." This past month has been interesting as I have done a lot of thinking about the previous year and what I was doing this time last year. It has brought up a number of emotions and I have to say that it has actually been kind of good. In the past year I have lost some friends, made some new ones, and even become better friends with people. I was looking at my journal last night from last year and it made me laugh because I kept mentioning how I didn't think I would be staying in Los Angeles very long and how it wasn't for me. And now, I don't know when and even if I will ever leave this place. I feel good. And I will say this over and over because I can't remember a time when I have felt pretty much completely content with my life. Right now, I truly do for the most part. I will always and forever miss people because I think that is only natural. I will always wish those I love lived closer to me. But I also know how much my leaving has strengthened a lot of my relationships with people. I grew up this past year. I mean I grow up every year, but this past year was the hardest thus far in my life. I questioned so many things this past year that I felt completely exhausted half of the time. And I think there will still be those things that I continue to question. I truly adore life and I truly live for each day. It sounds cheesy but it is what I believe. Like all of us, I have no idea what my future holds, but I didn't know that last year and here I am enjoying every minute of it. California is where I belong right now and my job is where I should be working right now. It has been a hell of a ride this past year and I only hope the next year is as exciting. I understand there will continue to be challenges, heartache, etc, but I am willing to embrace these if it means in the end I will be content and happy with myself. Because ultimately it comes down to me being happy with myself. In the words of RENT, "How do you measure a year?............"