I'm Sorry..I guess

So, I was talking to a friend today about how long she thought she would be in Colorado. She stated that she doesn't want to leave right now because she might get this really great job and she also has some really good friends right now and doesn't want to leave them. Well, all of the sudden I felt like crap. And it was weird because for the first time I had thought about the fact that maybe I was a bitch for leaving all my best friends behind. I mean, was it selfish of me? Yes, when I left I was thinking only of myself, but I thought that is what I was suppose to do. And honestly, I think my friendships with my "true friends" has gotten even better. Some friends I have gotten close with through IMing and text messaging!! But still, I can't help but feel somewhat bad. Because I do miss my friends more than anything. You know, I think about where I'll be in a year. Because I'll have been here for 2 years at the end of September!! I feel the reason I came out here was to prove something to myself. That I could make it on my own. And I have and I am enjoying it. But there are those little parts still missing that I wish I could have control of. It's Sunday!! I think too much on Sunday!!