Back In The Saddle Again

I head back to Los Angeles tomorrow afternoon. I have to say that as sad as I am I am somewhat anxious to get back to "my life." Because, while everyone is at work all day I am sitting here thinking about what my life use to be like and how much I miss the people that are still here.
I can't tell you how unbelievably great it was to see everyone and there were acouple people I was not able to see and for this I am truly sorry. There just wasn't enough time. Just like the "Save By The Bell" episode when Jesse screams that there is never enough time...haha!! The first weekend I was here was rowdy and I loved every minute of it and didn't want it to end. It truly reminded me of the good old days.
Coming back to Colorado reminded me of why I left in the first place. But it also reminded me of why I was so sad to leave. When I think about me being in Los Angeles and the people that are still here I can't help but get a smile on my face. Because I have become closer with most of you because I did indeed move away. Some people I don't even talk on the phone with and only text message, IM, and email. I am truly blessed that I could build such long lasting friendships through these different means of communications.
And then there are those of you who have known me for like 8 years and we have been through some times together and we have cried and we have laughed and we have fought. But we always made it through and here we are today, loving each other probably more than we did when we were in college together.
This time visiting Colorado was different just because I know that I truly belong in Los Angeles right now. And I think everyone around me knows that as well. And that is a good feeling. I am almost at my 2 year mark with living in Los Angeles. I honestly cannot believe I made it and thinking about coming back to Colorado is not thought of as a failure to me so much anymore. Although, I will not be moving back to Colorado anytime soon unless something astounding happens, at least I know I didn't let myself down and I have given everything in Los Angeles a chance. I am one of the lucky ones in that I actually love it out there and love waking up everyday.
It makes me sad to think that I don't have all of you physically near me. That I can't hug and cuddle with you and all that. And that I can't just go get a drink with you. But at the same time, I just think about how close we are still and how we can only get closer and that brings me great comfort.
Colorado has been good to me!! It will always be good to me!! Los Angeles is my home right now, but all of you are my home as well. Come visit me soon PLEASE!!!...hahah!! Even if it is just for a weekend that is all we need!! My bro, dad, and Ann always come out and have a blast..haha. I think you guys could too! Right Mel C.?..hehe!!

Take care everyone and I sincerely hope it's not another year before I see all of you!! But if it is, a year sure does fly by so I can deal!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!