Forever Young

So, I have been here now for nine months. I find myself taking a step back and reflecting on the last nine months of my life. I mean, I guess all I ever do is think about life but lately it has been more obvious. When I first moved here I remember being overwhelmed with emotions. I missed my friends and family beyond belief. And then I went through a phase where I missed them but it was all okay. There was too much other stuff going on in my life to really sit and dwell on not having them(all of you) here with me. And now I am here today and I am thinking how having friends here would be very nice. See, I am now comfortable with the situation I am in pretty much. I am comfortable with work and the people there and even hang out with them occassionally. I have become a California driver. I am not afraid to get lost in this huge city and find myself going out and wandering around. I hear street names and I know what street that is. I may not know exactly where it is but I have heard of it before. I know where cities are and which direction they are in from where I live. These are just little things that I have become comfortable with and feel good about. Now, I think it is time to find some good friends or to have some more friends around me. I have become much closer with the people I work with and that has helped and my roommate and I might join some type of class just to meet people. In Colorado, I had something going on pretty much every night. I hated work and it didn't matter how I felt when I went in. I went out so much that it made me exhausted but I couldn't say no. Sometimes all I wanted to do was sit at home and not do anything. But then I came here and not knowing anyone obviously changed things. But also my job became more important. I have a shit load of more responsibility and I get up so fricking early. I feel like I have become somewhat of a grown up finally....hahahaha!! And I think about being back in Colorado and how it would be. And the thing is it wouldn't be the way I had left it whatsoever. Right at the time I left everything started changing with everyone around me. People were moving out of the state and some people were getting married or are getting married. Some even have children now. People were leaving Garts one by one and things just were changing. It was like the perfect time to go. And things are still changing with everyone that I know and even with me. I think maybe I just need a bit of a vacation and to see my family or my friends. Thank God I get to see my mom soon. It seems that every week I discover something new about myself and where I live. I guess that is a good thing. Oh geez, such is life!